It has been awhile since my last entry.. been through a lot of things which for me..every of it is a seed of self-improvement no matter how hard it would be. Life is truly a stage.. and every lady should treat it as a runaway stage. No matter what happens- if you fall down while you strut in your 5" stillettos- you should get up and keep on walking with style..
.... and.. that's life ~ we stumbled with mistakes we made. Still.. we should keep on walking with head look forward and strut in style. No doubt it is difficult at times... Yup! Definitely difficult. Especially in dealing with mistakes that could have been avoided at the first place.
Mistakes are like falling on the runaway. Ho.. yes.. the incident will keep on repeating itself over and over again in our mind... keep on haunting and building fear over things. I was often being haunted.. by my mistakes. I thought that once i get over with mistakes that i've done, i would be wiser and smart enough NOT to commit the same mistakes again. BUT... still.. i was wrong.
People often say that mistakes done on the second time is not a mistake anymore..it is more of a choice. Hmmmm... well... sometimes it is not driven by choice but it is more of hope ~ hmm..so naive..or should i say stupidity-bounded? The phase that i went through being haunted by my mistakes..done over and over again.. has got me thinking.. analyzing the 'why'... Self blaming at first..and getting nowhere near self recovery- i realized that the re-occurrence of mistakes that i've done was hope-driven. I thought that ..'may be this time round' it'll be different. Still- hurt and confused.. the mistakes that i've done hit me harder this time- just like a boomerang.
.... so.. i've learnt and re-learnt: it is just like buying new pair of stilettos. All depends on the judgement- but then - when feelings over-ruled our thoughts... how could we possibly make the right one.. Owhh well - that's the bitter truth. Feelings. Wrong kind of stilettos- A fall .. a stumble on the runaway. All based on judgement.
Walking gracefully in style on the runaway of life takes experiences of handling mistakes.. though being haunted by mistakes.. fear of re-occurrences- the walk of life should be taken with courage. What's important is what is learnt, forgiving oneself and others, repentence and enough courage to strut forward. After all- God only bestow us with only one life.. a precious gift that should not be given away easily. Choose to walk it well - for me: let's do it in style... an appreciation to such precious gift... ;)
Except those who repent and do righteous deeds, and openly declare (the truth which they concealed). These, I will accept their repentance. And I am the One Who accepts repentance, the Most Merciful. [Quran, 2:160]
